Do you feel like you’re suffocating?
Do you feel like you’re suffocating? “At home the harder I tried, the more I failed...I really did a lot of work trying to keep the lid on things, keep things clean... I became compulsive... I did everything right... did everything to perfection but he simply slipped through my fingers like sand…the harder I tried to grasp the quicker he fell. I tried to be good to my in-laws, enduring literally everything , to be a good mother, so that I could be a good wife to him, but nothing seemed to work. I even developed OCD and long term depression. I really thought I was the one at fault, trying to prove myself . I thought that I was a failure - incapable of keeping a man happy. I always tried to please him, attempting to prevent violent outbreaks and get those scraps of acknowledgement. What I didn’t know was that he was my abuser. I was chained to him, because I truly believed he was right. But I broke free. From the shackles of self-blame and shame. It was after I took the jou...